Scare me.

I'm scared.

I'm scared of so many things right now.

I know that I'm most likely going to be okay. And I'm nervous about the surgery... but I'm not entirely scared of that anymore. Maybe. I feel like I have to end everything with "provided I don't die". It's morbid. It makes me scared. My thoughts make me scared.

I'm scared that I won't leave anything behind.
I'm scared that no one will know how much I loved them.
I'm scared that even if they get the tumor... that my life will be cut short.
I'm scared that I haven't done anything in my life worth remembering.
I'm scared that I will be forgotten.
I'm scared to die.

I'm having some dark thoughts today. Sorry.