I have been a douche recently. I'm snippy with Don and the boys. I'm snarky, and sarcastic. I'm making really morbid jokes. I'm trying to be nicer but it's not working so well. I know people are just trying to help but oh my goodness.
And something else that pisses me off... please stop treating me like I'm some kind of sad sick freakshow.
I still get my ass up and move. I'm stressed yeah. I'm tired... yeah. But I was both stressed and tired pre-diagnosis.
See when I post things to update people. I'm not doing it for pity. Not for an "oh look as the sad cancer girl". I do it because I want to give people an update. Whatever.
Today seems to be going well. Last day at work before my surgery and what not. I'm not too worried. I'm just going to take the time off to get my house together.
Anyone think it's morbid to write out letters to people just in case? You know? Just drop in my last thoughts to them. I mean it's highly unlikely. But in the event that something does go wrong, I want to make sure they have something memorable from me.
Anyways. Sorry this post is all over the place. My brain hasn't quite been able to settle these days.
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